my life is pending on so many things right now. and i am not so concerned with whether or not all of them pan out…as much as whether i survive. my head is like a puddle of water evaporating in the sun. i feel like any day now i could evaporate.
i drove all the way home (about 45 min) from ‘joshapalooza’ last nite in silence. at first, i guess i didnt even notice it. i got about half way home and realized. i imediately went to turn the music on, and when i did, i turned it right back off. i dont know why i had it off to begin with, i am CONSTANTLY listening to music…in the car, at work, at home. i rationalized it with just coming from a 6 hr mini festival with lots of loud(good) music and then realized i turned it off to think. but i wasnt really thinking about one particular thing. or maybe anything? my mind was just resting. i felt so much better when i got home. sleep was good. i think i needed to think about nothing. i dont know how i did it, my mind is usually racing from one thing to another… CONSTANTLY. a little bit ADD-ish.
but i need to do it more.
LIFE LESSON #7 TAKE SOME TIME TO THINK ABOUT NOTHING.
